Still one in the sense of going to meetings/etc, only because I'm waiting for Jehovah's direction on what he wants me to do. I know, and from myself too, that it is near impossible to flat out mention the falsehood, etc, to anyone. It's mentally blocked out as a trick, etc, and also the fear, that if listening to this, your going to be deserted and on your own. (that is true, in a sense)
I was awoken by the SCRIPTURES and by what I see going on in the congregation. For years I didn't see any falsehood being taught in scriptures, and took the history and abuse I saw going on as imperfect men. The part that awoke me up was after deep prayer, part of James 1:5 (i think, no time to look it up), about asking for Godly wisdom. Then in my reading I was all of a sudden coming across hundreds of scriptures showing what is going on today, the falsehoods being done, how angry, VERY ANGRY God is with what is being done in his name, and my first inclination was to get the heck out, (the flight when catching sight of the disgusting thing causing desolation), at the same time, ran into a bunch of scriptures about seeking the lost sheep, being sent in as sheep amondst wolves, remaining as you are when awakened, and also know that if I physically leave, would be impossible to help or talk to anyone, as none would listen at all. So at the moment as I'm leading God instruct me and learning the true truth, if he wants me to physically leave the organization, or remain in to try to help some there.