About 5 years ago I had the same problem that you are
now feeling. For 90% of my life I thought that I would never
get old and die. Once you realize that this life is all that you have
you will begin to appreciate every day as a gift. Life is not always
tied up in a pretty bow, but it is still a gift. I am growing
old and I am thankful because it beats the alternative of
dying young. Being raised as a JW has been a real blow
to who I am and what I could have been. Yes life is not
fair but it is still good. Please make peace with your
past so it will not screw up your present.
Sour Grapes