by TastingFreedom 46 Replies latest jw friends
I am also sorry for the lies I have spread. I can't help but hope that the people I preached to and had Bible studies with don't eventually end up in that God-forsaken organisation.
I hope that we can all achieve peace, happiness and success in our lives and prove that there is life and love outside of that place.
Love.
Thank you for your kind words. I have tried to reach out to some people that were part of JCs, however, some are back in, and they believe everything to be correct the way it is. So, there is very little I can do about that. I have faded so far, so trying to be careful not to lose some of the family contact that I have. Don't want to be labeled as an apostate yet.
I accept what I did was wrong but not my fault, just part of what I was expected to do.
I hope that I can write more about my life experience as an elder and JW on here soon. Already have written my story on JWR. This story was posted a year ago, when I was still serving as an elder:
http://www.jehovahswitnessrecovery.com/phpBB3/viewtopic.php?f=5&t=1935
"We were humiliating you and thus, taking away your dignity"
(beautifully worded)
I refused to show up at my J.C. I even refused to sign the certified letter they sent me after my no-show. Three dirty old men getting a hard on was not the way I intended to exit.
As someone very recently subjected to such a committee, it is difficult to feel compassion towards one who pulled the trigger, whether he was following orders or not. But that's just because I'm experiencing all of the pains that such individuals cannot possibly comprehend when they make these decisions--and they do not appear to care in the slightest.
At the same time, I appreciate someone like this who is man enough to accept responsibility for his role in the suffering this religion has caused people. For me, though, it's a quiet appreciation, the kind that one who was victimized may occasionally have for someone who victimized others. We're all to blame, in our own ways, just for not seeing it sooner. I never wanted to be an elder for this very reason--I didn't consider it morally right to cut someone off from their friends and family for any reason.
I'm not helping here, and it's only because the wounds are fresh for me. I hope that more elders will wake up as you did, and I'm sorry you had to live through putting others through so much pain, and being in pain yourself. It's not a fate I'd wish on anyone. Thank you for your apology.
--sd-7
Awesome post, TastingFreedom. I want to thank all of the former elders, COs, etc on here for obeying your conscience and getting out of the borg. You serve as an inspiration to us 'little people' in the Dub-land that we can make it out, too.
btt
I like it when good threads get bumped.
Nice to see the other side and the pain it can cause the elders too.
the elders that D/F were good friends and i know they struggled real hard to not D/F me.
In the end i had to tell them to take that action.
i have no doubt those men did not sleep well that night.
i still have a lot of respect for how hard they tried and the kindness they showed me.
Not all elders were arsholes....
oz
