sd-7,
Leaving a destructive group like the Jehovah's Witnesses is nothing short of devastating. World-shattering. Our entire life/person was wrapped up in all things WT. Our way of thinking was dominated by a sense of loyalty to them.
I hope things begin to improve for you. I recall feeling a very uneasy and a little frightened about having to really 'think' for myself and make decisions on matters that were previously already decided for me, by strangers in Brooklyn.
Hang in there. Most of us can tell you, that it does get better, even if it happens slowly.
-LWT