Welcome Ryan!
Powerful story, thanks for sharing :)
I was raised in the darkness (WTS)
Indeed, couldn't have put it better myself.
Blessings,
Stephen
Why does Jehovah want to kill Daddy?
by BackRoomBilly 31 Replies latest jw friends
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carla
Welcome! I'm sorry for what you have been through. If you wife has difficulty send her here to read for awhile and she will soon understand what the life a jw is really like.
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Heaven
Welcome to JWN, BackRoomBilly/Ryan! It always shocks and angers me as to how abusive people are in this organization when they are supposedly directed by God. You are a very strong person, Ryan. Good for you! I'm glad you are going for counseling.
I think we have a similar kind of history accept for one thing. My parents weren't very heavily into the cancer when I was growing up. My Father wasn't into anything religious at that time. So they weren't abusive. It was only after I had grown up and left home that they decided to become baptized and get a bit fanatical. That's when some abuse in the family began. But you can't hit your adult children, so they just tried to make us feel like crap. They also began to withdraw from us. All this managed to do was create a big rift.
Now, my Father who is an MS, is aging and can't keep up with the demands anymore. He's alienated his sons and to a certain extent, me, however, I have chosen to overlook his meanness of the past because I understand now why all this garbage went on in the family. I try to explain it to my younger brother as well. I think he is getting a clearer picture and I hope one day he can forgive our Father.
I look forward to your posts here. Thank you for joining our group!
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CrimsonBleu
I'v read lots of hooror stories on here, BRB, but yours hit me like no other. I am so disturbed by this right now I can't even think of a decent reply, only that I can hardly wait till the WTS is but a pile of rubble.
Sorry, it just breaks my heart to try to imagine the pain you went through, not to mention your father too, all becasue your Mom and GrandMOm jumped at the high and mighty chance to think they were so special that God would love them even more for ripping a family apart.
Hugs
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looloo
my heart goes out to , i can not even put myself in your five year old mind to cope with that pressure , child abuse is that , makes me mad and sad that the folk who tell their kids such things dont even realise how bonkers they sound ! nor do they realise the long term damage they do to children . welcome x
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troubled mind
(((((Backroombilly)))) it infuriates me the damage done to small children because of this stupid religion ! I was raised in by a believing Mother and from a young age understood never to trust my Dad or Grandparents because they didn't love jehovah ......that is a mind *uck for a little kid ..
I am now free of the "darkness" ,but sometimes the healing process is painful . I am glad you are getting help with it and I think you'll find this place a good place to let out those internal demons you have held in for so long .
peace
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poppers
Welcome to the board BRB. You've come to a good place to vent, to share, to heal, to find friendship. There are a lot of great people here.
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LatinxJW
BRB
Welcome and remember we all have been affected by the so called truth and we can get through it together. You owe it to yourself to let youself heal from this, don't let the fools in BK win.
Wish you the best
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BackRoomBilly
Thank all of you for your warm welcome. Most of all thank you for your understanding. As you probably know, explaining some of these things to a person that hasn't been through it is next to impossible. You guys have been through it and you know what I'm talking about. That is the greatest gift of all. Not to be alone with these demons anymore. - Ryan
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troubled mind
I found it quite amazing when I first found this website . What a relief to find other people that actually had the same thoughts , feelings and experiences I had ! No longer feeling like the odd person out is a good feeling .
Welcome Ryan and hope to get better aquainted.