Why read the Bible and meditate on it? Precisely the question I asked a CO a few years ago. Because we were given over and over again a truly horrible version of Genesis 22 to teach in our literature that runs contrary to everything else I read or knew about God. He immediately asked if the reasons for my dissent had come from any other source or persons other than my own reading and research in our literature. No, I told him truthfully. Except for a Strong's Exhaustive Concordance, Bible reading and meditation alone had led me to this conviction.
He asked me if I was aware of how our literature was produced. I was. But I told him that this did not mean that it is/was infallible.The Society admits as much in the Proclaimers book. He disscussed the matter with me in the presece of course of another elder. There was no wayback for me because the Bible was in full accord with itself and not with the account in the literature. There was no way I could unbelieve what the Bible taught and told him so. So he didn't trouble me about it any more. I am grateful to that CO. After that it took a few more years and further reading before I knew I could not teach this myself nor could I fail to express the Bible's words as the more beautiful option to the slanderous account that the literature perpetuated.
The line eventually was drawn in the sand: Say it the way the Society says it and never speak of it to any other of Jehovah's Witnesses.
That was the beginning of the end. And a new beginning.