Oh sure. I don't like upsetting some people, I do like some of them. But, I was having constant anxiety from the dissonance, and finally I figured, can it be any worse than this?
Fear is like that. What you imagine is rarely as bad as reality.
Were you totally petrified to question the teaching of the dubs?
by MsDucky 23 Replies latest jw friends
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peaches
towards the end,,,,i was totally horrified....how sad,,,to be so totally petrified by ones religion....i wish i was joking,,,but i'm not...deep deep fear that someone would beable to see it on me,,,,and then go and tell....shudder....i still have night-mares....
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MsDucky
Finally, one day I realized that I google everything else- travel, research, trivia, etc. I should simply google Jehovah's Witnesses. Once I read some stuff at freeminds and jwfacts, I knew it was right to keep reading it.
That is what helped me too. The internet and freeminds. It had a list of groups that you could join. That's how I found JWD.
Even though I had disassociated myself, I still thought that I was wrong. I don't know where I'd be if it were not for the internet.
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babygirl30
I used to feel the SAME WAY (believed I could affect the flow of the holy spirit in the congregation) and it freaked me out!!! Honestly thought that if I did anything WRONG that it was ME that was single-handedly bringing the cong down and was preventing Jehovah's spirit from coming through the doors!!! HAHAHAHAHA...little did I know all that MESS that was going on in my cong had nothing to do with me, and that MY situation was actually 'tame' to a lot of the crap some elders kids, pioneers, and MS's were doing!!!!
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EmptyInside
Well, most of the questions I had either couldn't be answered or the explanation just didn't make sense. I just assumed it was a weakness of mine for clearly not having a full understanding. But, the usual response was, "wait of Jehovah", and "the light will get brighter." I think it hit me more when I tried explaining my beliefs to others and it sounded shallow and like a fairy tale.
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leavingwt
The first time I came onto this site, my heart was pouding with Aposta-Fear. I later learned that this was a normal, programmed response.
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Lieu
No. They're just men, nothing more, nothing less.
Teach implies learn and learn implies questions.
Paul went to speak about some in the Jeruselem group inappropriately teaching gentiles should be circumsized ... that should be pause for thought. Good thing he wasn't a punk and too afraid to say something. His fear was that of God not of men.
JWs fear men & the majority rely on pleasing men, not God.
Jesus never said he was returning "invisibly", men did. Jesus never said the heavens were shut up in 1935, men did. Jesus didn't say you need to write down how much time you spend talking to people, men did. Jesus isn't trying to guess the date of the big A, men are.
Ever notice the Apostle Paul, et al never disparged the Greeks or Romans for their idols and false gods? They simply used their religious nature to turn people to the true God by speaking about the good news. They never lashed out but implored believers to live a decent life full of good deeds where people had no bad things to say about them and maybe it would win some people over.
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yknot
Well originally I was taught to ask questions as a way to sort out Satan's crafty acts............. end being nigh and all.
In my current congregattion my 'running ahead' was allegedly soooooo bad that one Elder (nice but extremely passive man, serving where the need is greater now) said if Jehovahs saw fit to rename us 'Indian Names' in the NooSystem mines would be .....
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cult classic
I was indoctrinated from birth to suppress any tendency to question and doubt all witness authority figures.........God, the organization, my parents, the elders........etc etc. As I started to grow up and question/express doubts, I was chastised verbally and emotionally until I fell in line........... I wish I had just bit the bullet and followed my heart. I would have managed somehow..............
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