I knew from childhood that the borg was flawed, so I don't think I had any one specific experience that started it all. The last couple years things accellerated but again, no one single event pushed me out. One thing I can isolate, however, that makes me a fader rather than a pretender is that I have my wife by my side. If she was still IN, I'd almost certainly still be faking it to this day. But we're out together, thank god.