Thank you all for the Welcome responses.
I am very thankful we didn't end up getting married. I don't think that I ever would have gotten out. So glad that I am now though. Allows me to pursue my music career, which is something the witnesses do not condone.
To answer severals question about dating her for 3 years. The first year and a half were pretty secretive. We didn't want it getting out, since the congregation that I was in like to spread gossip like a wildfire here in Southern California (which is hear is fairly common in congregations). It wasn't until the last year and a half that we started shwoing that we were together...sitting together and meetings, going out in service together etc. It's interesting thinking back on it that about 6 months or so after we made it public, is when she started cheating on me.
Hopefully my feelings on this will leave soon. It's hard since she was my last girlfriend...I acutally have problems because of that and other trumatic childhood upbringings. I have a really hard time trusting anybody....even myself sometimes....it's gotten fairly bad.
What does get me too is that I was reproved for it....I don't really know how that worked. I ended up walking out of the Judicial Meetings twice. I think even dropped an F bomb in there once while I was being accused of things...I'm sure that didn't help my case...lol. The best thing I guess to do is let it go and move on and realize that I have a much better life out from under that religion.
