OK so many of you did not mind sitting and wasting time in a car while out in service because it beat banging on doors and trying to convince someone to join a religion that at least I could not fully explain even to myself much less someone else. I agree sitting in a car beat banging on doors hands down. But was it not crazy going door to door. I guess I am just waking up to the insanity of it all. I pioneered and I tied and tried to buy into the end is near thing, that it meant peoples lives and that they were all going to die unless I SAVE THEM, but the people at the doors seemed so happy and they made good points about what they believed way better than I could do for my faith most the time. I used to think 'hey they seem happy leave them alone and let them enjoy their morning instead of getting them all worked up over a 144,000 going to haven or some other stupid thing that we felt we needed to push on them.'
I think what has been eating at me lately is that we were not trained to handle the people at the doors. Normal people thought we were nut case cult members and treated as according to how normal people treat cult people. Like at the airports or in Seattle where the Scientologists hang out. You just avoid them, but we come to peoples doors. We invade their homes, the places that they live. I look at it now as how rude and arrogant we were.
OK so the normal people know we are a nut case cult members but then that leaves the crazy people of the world. I was raised in the JW cult and had no training on how to handle mental illness. Yet that was who listened to me at the door the mentally ill. I do not have anything against people who are mentally ill but I do know you need training in how to handle them. Like at the hall I go to all the ones coming in to the "truth" have by-poller or manic depression or some other such mental illness.
If that were not enough I was thinking of when I was a teenager and the neighborhood I worked in field service was infected with drugs. The city I live in is not that horrible of town but the area where the congregation I grew up was and still is really bad. We had two drive shootings one killed a 16 year old girl shortly after we came back from Bethel and the other shooting killed a three year old girl. Yet the elders thought nothing about have young sisters work around the block by themselves.
I remember being about 16 or 17 years old and working with another young sister and this householder trying to get us to come inside no one knew where we were. Another time I was about the same age and worked with a sister who was in her late 70's this really creepy guy invites us in and the older sister was like sure we'll come in. The first thing he did was block our way of leaving yet the older sister did not think a thing of it. I was totally freaking out inside. We were there for well over an half an hour when finally some elder came looking for us. The look on the creepy guys face when he saw a man at the door was scary. Maybe I am wrong in my thoughts of him but I told the older sister back in the car that guy gave me the creeps. She just said Jehovah draws all kinds of people.
I guess I just do not understand how this religion has made it. There has to have been more people hurt doing door to door then we know. Like a sister was murdered in Washington when I was a teenager. I heard it was in central Washington but not for sure. The point is the murdered sister was blamed for her death. She went to the house alone and should have known better. Excuse me. I was sent to homes with just one other sister who was my age. So she went alone I was told Jehovah would watch over me.I guess I am just bitter right now with how stupid this all sounds and I am somewhat mad at myself for buying into it.
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