I dig ya, lil red dot...
When I first decided to live life on my terms, I had to go through some of the experiences that I should have learned from back in high school or early 20s. Some things I am not proud of, though I'm glad I experienced them so as to learn from them and to know my limits.
It is pretty silly to be 40 or so and act like a stupid college kid. But I got through it and now can feel relaxed in who and what I am. I can say...been there done that, don't like the next morning...or the doctors visits...
Now I see others first leaving the JWs and watch them go through what I went through and I want to warn them but I know they need to find their own way. I'll only step in if I see real trouble...