What now? Where to from here on in? (page 2)

life is to short

I do have to say I agree with you blondie. I did not mean to say ones like Joe and Barbara Anderson, Randy Watters, James Penton are not great and very helpful or that they are stuck in the past, it is the ones who have the anger still in them so many years latter that I mean.

If it were not for ones like Simon we would not have this web sight to go to. Barbara has been so much help to so many especially with the child abuse issues.

I hope no one thinks I was meaning ones like those you mentioned, I was just talking about ones who get struck in being to mad, so mad that they do more harm then good in trying to help ones like us who are just learning the truth about this religion.

I wish everyone could just see this religion for what it is and I feel so overwhelmed wising I could do more to open peoples eyes in the right way what ever way that is that I need to find for myself.

LITS

cult classic

"On one hand i want the WBTS to be some distant forgotten memory but realize this probably will now not be until i feel they are 'safe'"

Hey Oz - I know that feeling. I wish I hadn't been born in. But I was. I wish my family was out. But they are not. I wish it was not so difficult to drop the whole witness thing. But it is. It's impossible to erase who we were. What influenced us. The best we can do is learn to manage the thoughts and feelings that we have now that we know what happened to us. That is very difficult.

I lived with so many arbitrary man made rules all of my life. I can't do it anymore. I am determined to not make up or worry about conforming to rules that don't make sense. So I don't put a limit or judgement on how little or how much time and energy I need to work through getting over having been a witness.

I totally relate to that burning in the stomach feeling. It sucks.

Best wishes to everyone on this journey

Cult Classic

cyberjesus

Hey Oz, we all know the feeling, just sit tight and get more things to do. get busy and get your mind distracted, it will give you something to think while you wait until you feel freeer.

The other day I was thinking... what if I am wrong? haha and then I went back to have sex with my girlfriend

penny2

Aussie, I can totally relate.

Sometimes I feel like I can't get on with my own life. I don't even know what I want that "life" to be.

penny

OUTLAW

I`m here because a Beer Tap pops out of my screen.. Everytime I Log on to JWN..

I`m not giving up Free Beer..I`m staying!!..

....................... ...OUTLAW

Aussie Oz

Thankyou for all the replies people.

Without those who have dedicated so much time and effort, like all those named here, i would still know almost nothing. I hope those have still been able to have a great life without being too tied up in an anti Jw persona.

Perhaps i too will one day be able to help others like that.

I will never totally delete my files either and would probably keep them all backed up somewhere in case i need them.

I do know that i am not ready and willing to stop participating here or learning more thats for sure. It has not taken over my life but does take up its fair share of time and attention.

I have started blogging about things i have learned as a way to put it all into some sense of order as otherwise it was just a jumble of information. A bit like telling others about it in my own words seems to sound it down inside me more too.

And like cyberjesus, sometimes i shake my head and doubt what i have learned!

it will be interesting to see where this journey leads thats for sure...

oz

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