Welcome to the forum Desilusionnee.
Please don't tell your JWs anything, or show them anything. That only works very rarely. You have to nudge them very gently in the right direction while they think that you are still a believer.
You need to know the best questions to ask and how to ask them and how to control the conversation so that they don't get away with not answering your question. All that without setting off their Apostate alarms.
Do your homework and make a plan before you change anything you do.
Cheers
Chris