Dear Brother AS1
No doubt you have struggled over your years of inactivity with such a question!
Jehovah designed us as social creatures who needs upbuilding and association in order to maintain a healthy and balanced POV.
This is why he has also made available through his 'slave' this wonderful publication I would like to review with you next time we talk! This life changing books is titled 'What Does the Bible Really Teach?".
I would like to draw your attention to Chapter 16, paragraphs18 as it addresses your question as if written just for you!
18 To please God, you must reject false worship and take a stand for true worship. What does this include? The Bible states: “Let us consider one another to incite to love and fine works, not forsaking the gathering of ourselves together, as some have the custom, but encouraging one another, and all the more so as you behold the day drawing near.” (Hebrews 10:24, 25) Christian meetings are happy occasions for you to worship God in the way that he approves. (Psalm 22:22; 122:1) At such meetings, there is “an interchange of encouragement” among faithful Christians.—Romans 1:12.
So ASO as you can see and certainly agree upon, you should attend meetings because it pleases God!
Yes, I understand you haven't been active in 'false worship'......directly.......But my dear Brother by being inactive you have allowed yourself to become swayed by the world's ways and we all know who is the ruler of this world......Yes it is Satan..... Thusly your association with the world apart from being an active member of the Christian Congregation can be seen by Jehovah as false worship! .....
Not only will your return make Jehovah's heart sing, think of your family's satisfaction of knowing you will be in paradise with them!