For all my indoctrination and trying to believe all the shit back then... the one thing I never bought into was the confession of sins or bad thoughts.
As a JW, I never, ever willingly went to elders about anything. And the times I got questioned by them, I skirted the issue or out-and-out lied. The only time I ever willingly gave information at a JC meeting was payback to a slimeball of a dub that I wanted to see get their just desserts.
And yes...there was a disconnect between trying to believe what I was taught and trying to side step the "laws" and never admit my shortcomings. I didn't feel good about it at the time, but looking back, I'm sure glad that I never told them anything. Now it's kind of a source of pride that no one in that old JW lifestyle really ever knew much about me.