OK I am still in good standing in the JW world for whatever reason I still do not understand. I get shunned and then I get love bombed by others? It is all very confusing.
OK so I was talking to this sister a couple of days ago and I have known her forever she is a very nice person. She would help others even none JW's she is just a good kind human being. I truly like her but she is also very cult minded. Her husband is not a JW and has put up with the JW's for most of his life as she became one when they were first married. They are in their late 60's.
OK so now her youngest daughter is going through huge problems, she just had two babies and her husband has a really bad kind of cancer. They live about 300 miles away from the mom but the congregation where they live has stepped up to the plate and is bring them dinners and giving them money etc. It is really great. Now the father is even talking about the fact that this may be the truth the true religion because of the love that is being shown his daughter.
I wanted to cry when she was telling me how wonderful it is to be part of Jehovah's wonderful love. My husband an elder at the time for 28 years had a heart attack and nothing no one was there for me. No phone calls, no one came up to the hospital nothing. No meals. The PO's wife when I called said 'what do you want from me I have to go out in service'. The Chaplin was appalled at the fact that I was so by myself. I never felt more alone in my life. Everyone who knew I was a JW was like where are you church members? There was another family there and the wife said she had never seen any one look as down as I did and she was going through the same thing I was but she had family and friends.
I do not understand why the difference. I aways tried so hard to do everything that the JW's wanted. I pioneered, went to Bethel, married an elder, gave up my marriage so he could be with others. We gave up so much time that should have been spent making our marriage work and the CO demanded it of me. I remember being newly married and telling the CO how I needed time with my husband and he told me to wait until the new system for that.
Yet this couple they are in their 30's do not do anything they hardly make meetings yet they are treated to kindly. Why? I am truly glad for them, it is horrible what they are going through. It breaks my heart the husband may not live and she is going to be a young mom with three children under fours years of age.
But why do some get treated so good and other so horribly? I do not mean to brag about what I have done, I just wish I had lived my life different. I just was so taken in by this being the "truth" and to give my youth to the brog and I have nothing. I believed it with my heart of hearts and I gave my life to it and I have nothing. Now this father who is in his late 60's is thinking of joining this cult after all these years. Frustrating.
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As a PS this family also has had family members that have been treated very badly but they were doing wrong too so the father is confused I guess.