Hello,Jade
I believe you still want to belong to the J.W. family but you have a feeling that they gave you the boot.
You still believe all you were taught,living forever in paradise but fine it hard to reconcile because you have an unbelieving mate and are afraid of losing him. You came here for some answers and rehab.You want to belong and loved by J.W. but are fining it hard because you see the hypocraisy and they are not what the say they are.I believe many come here because the WBTS is/are two-faced.They fine it therapeutic.
Just my humble thaught.
B