Hello:
I just wanted to write and offer you my condolences and to welcome you. I am 31, also born into this religion/cult. Both of my JW parents have passed away.
I want to offer you this thought, since you seem to be suffering from depression related to your father's suicide.
Did you even consider that the JW Religion drove your father to suicide, and NOT YOU??? Being a JW is a constant guilt trip, you can never do enough, be at enough meetings, be in field service enough, be perfect enough, be spiritual enough, etc. It wears people down and the burn up all of the time. My JW mother was a nurse for many decades. She worked in the psych ward for 10 of those years. Guess which members of a specific religious group she saw the most in there? Yep - JW's!!! She couldn't obviously tell me their names, but she sure told me when some of them were in the nut house, for a myriad of reasons...usually depression, psychosis, schizophrenia, alcohol and/or drug abuse, violent spouses, etc, etc. It was incredible. So you see, they can spout off that they are, "The Happiest People on Earth" all they want, but it doesn't make it so. They are most likely the most depressed and/or suicidal people on earth.
- Wing Commander
