WHAT IF YOU HAD NEVER LEFT !!! (page 2)

laverite

I shudder to think...Honestly, I can't even bring myself to think of the "what ifs" in this scenario.

As we come up on Thanksgiving, I am THANKFUL that I escaped.

Hmm--No Christmas. Instead, I would be worrying myself sick about the upcoming Christmas songs instead of bashing how wimpy they are. I would be stress-sick about the decorations in the stores instead of shopping there and buying some. I would be hating the Christmas lights instead of rigging some up myself and lamenting how wimpy they have become.

No computer. I would probably not know half of what "president(??)" Osama Obama was really up to. And, though I know a good deal about natural health, I would not be able to make good on it because much of the stuff I got I got online after a Google search. And yes, the water is better filtered through a fluoride filter, after breaking it in.

I would be living with the crap the witlesses "gave" me (so they could boast about generosity more than anything else, besides "indebting" me to themselves). Much of that was either unsightly, very difficult to use, did a lousy job, was not economical to use, and/or got used up too quickly. Instead of buying good products--I can get used to shoes that last nearly 2 years instead of less than 6 months and don't need to be retied every 2 seconds, clothing that lasts years instead of months, and utensils that will probably last beyond my lifetime.

I would be wasting much time on a$$emblies. Every few months, I would have to waste another weekend or so listening to the same old bullsxxx about how the end is so much closer, and telling me to avoid things that "could lead to Fornication", materialism, and entertainment. I would be told to do more in field circus--how people have quit good jobs so they could pio-sneer, how they wasted fortunes selling out so they could serve where the "need(??)" is greater, and that just being able to pio-sneer at great personal hardship is a "blessing(??)".

I would also be wasting more time at boasting sessions and field circus. Instead of spending the time producing art work (which is what the Christmas decorations I installed amounts to), I would be wasting it listening to witlesses bashing others for doing the same thing. The money it cost me for Christmas decorations would have been wasted in gas donations, suit dry cleanings, replacements for field circus supplies, new shirts and shoes, and fast, good-tasting poison every lunch (which adds up quickly if you do it all the time).

Instead of a library of books that help you to think clearly or that are useful as references, I would be stuck with a library of Washtowel littera-trash. Instead of having to hunt for a place to store my "sun worship" decorations, I would be hunting for a place to store the Washtowel and Asleep! rags I don't place. Instead of having more than 2,500 CDs worth of real music plus another 100 of downloaded tracks (mostly bought but a few "stolen" and 40 more of Christmas music, I would be looking at throwing away my 225 Kingdumb maladies so I could replace them with CDs of the 135 new Kingdumb maladies. Instead of being able to sit home typing into this forum, doing research on whatever interests me at the spur of the moment, or watching videos I feel like, I would be out in field circus or at the Kingdumb Hell.

Aussie Oz

i may well have suicided. seriously.

If i had survived my low self esteem, and made elder, my kids would hate me coz i would have become a hard arsed party line guy in order to cope...

i shudder to think about it .... i am soooooo glad i am out!!!!!

if i was still in, it's about what i would not have : FREEDOM to make up my own mind. My very happy life.

I could never go back, never never never, i knew that from the very first meeting i deliberatly missed.

i said then and i hold to it now, that if i were to die at an 'armageddon', i would rather die an honest man than a hypocrite.

oz

mamalove

I would hate my life. But my other side would be much more happy with me. It is hard....no lie there. But worth it. I need more time on my side to heal my wounds I think.

JRK

I would be dead.

JK

jookbeard

even if I had not not gone up the Apostate road I would have drifted out due to the ridiculous demands and weekly schedule that the Org demands , my personalty type would not have allowed for a long term career as a Dub, I was born in and baptized in 1987 I think I would have faded as a "sitting on the fence" Dub by about 1995.

Bonnie_Clyde

One thing's for sure. My marriage to Clyde would be over. It was almost over as it was because I was far behind him in fading, and he was about ready to lose it. Strange how things work out. I would have lost Clyde, but I wouldn't have lost my father, brother, daughter, son-in-law, niece, and several cousins. But I have a stronger relationship with my two sons and their wives.

Bonnie

Gayle

I left about 25 yrs ago and to even probe this thought now, brings shallow breath and uncomfortable pressure to my chest. Now, though I am relieved and proud my 5 kids are free, educated, free lives. I am a fulfilled grandma with contentment in my later years, thankful, and will be around loving family of 35 for Thanksgiving at my brother's!!

Newborn

I would be soooo miserable. I can't imagine still being a JW. I thank my lucky star every day that I left

GrandmaJones

Since I thought I was happy, and since I felt happy, then I guess I would still feel that way. After all, it wasn't until the "doubts" surfaced in the past couple of years that I became unhappy. Plus, I miss what I felt was the sure hope of everlasting life. It was a beautiful dream and the hardes thing for me to give up. I am not sure I am over that part yet...

WHAT IF YOU HAD NEVER LEFT !!!