Welcome New Chapter!
Fantastic first post, would love to read more. Your fifth paragraph really REALLY resonated with me, especially the part about constant inventory (great phrase) - anyhow, I did about 40 years of that - ENOUGH!!!!
Twenty years. Twenty years I lived with purpose, and with a global family, and with love, and acceptance. But it was also 20 years of guilt and gossip and constantly second
guessing myself. It is only now that I have peace. I don’t have to spend so much time looking inward and picking at my flaws and trying to always make myself better. Don’t get
me wrong, this is a good thing to do in the proper dose. But it’s terrible to be in a state of constant inventory, vigilantly searching for the weeds to yank out of my heart.