I didn't make the truth my own until 4 years after I was baptized--when my mother died. I was 19 and wanted desperately to welcome her back in the resurrection. So I threw myself into being a faithful JW so I could be there to welcome her back.
When I decided not too long ago that JW's didn't have the truth I thought my heart was being torn from my chest when I realized I may never see my mother again. Now I wonder where she is...