While I was a witless, I was not successful and basically lost all motivation after the first year in. I would do just enough to look busy in the cancer, but not with sincerity (and I always hoped that a blizzard would cancel the boasting sessions). I lived for those days when no one showed up in field circus--and, in cases of dense fog, I was hoping that no one would come out. Invariably, that didn't do anything.
Now, things are so much simpler. Pushing religion aside, I can keep watch on reality. If I see that the politicians and the Fed are destroying this country, I can take steps to get ready. The EPA is going to start regulating power plants this July for carbon output--I used that as the absolute deadline to stock up on rechargeable batteries and chargers (because they will be hard to get after that). QE2? Upon seeing that, I started getting interested in taking all the money sitting in bank accounts earning 0.5% or less and putting it into silver (and doing the research to find out that silver is way underpriced relative to gold). There is little I can do about the "phude" bill (S-510) or the sick care bill that passed last March, but at least I can get ready for the fake energy crisis and the hyperinflation that are on their way.
In that way, I have better responded to the actual truth--and made the real truth my own, without any help from religion--as an apostate than I ever could have as a witless. As a witless, I would have been told not to look at QE2 as a sign of anything except Jehovah's day (which didn't come before the First Dark Ages, so will not come now). I would have also never been allowed to look at Osama Obama getting the EPA to regulate power plants via the carbon limits after Congress killed similar rules last year--hence, never seeing the truth that rolling blackouts are likely once such regulations go into full effect this coming July.