I initially believed it when I first joined the cult, or rather, wanted to believe it. I had gone through a fair bit of crap, so the idea of a 'paradise' sounded kind of ok. Still, there was a lot that just didn't add up.
Once I got to really know the JWs, I decided that I would blow my own head off the day after armageddon if I was unlucky enough to survive it. The thought of living in a world filled with people like that was just too depressing.
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