Hello All ,
I have lurked here literally for years and, finally, I got up the nerve to say hello 'officially' so, hello!
I left the Borg in '97, I'm the youngest in my family of all Dubs. I was pretty much born-in as I believe I was around 2yrs old when my parents began their transition from independent thinkers to Borgs. My parents were always hard-core Dubs and I tried my very best for years and years to live up to their expectation of the perfect little Dub but, try as I might, I failed... When I finally got up the courage to leave each member of my family spoke with me, one on one, to tell me of the horrendous mistake I was making, how the world would just 'chew me up and spit me out', how selfish I was being and, just how much pain and heartache I was causing the family and oh yeah, lastly how, if I did in fact leave I would be 'dead' to them -- as if I never existed, gone, banished from their life, their hearts, minds and memories. My grandparents (non-Dubs) told me that not long after I left all evidence of my existence (pictures, etc) were deciedly removed from sight and, no mention of me made. It's like.... I never existed at all.
I don't, not for one second, regret my decision to leave and maybe I should state here the reason I left was due to the fact that I never 'believed' the Dubs had "the truth." So, like I said, leaving was one of the the smartest moves I've ever made (I only wish I had the emotional strength to leave sooner) but the pain, the trauma of growing up a Dub, the torture of being forced to live a lie only to keep contact with my family, the harrasement I underwent as I tried to leave the horrible, horrible things that were said to me from 'friends' as I was leaving -- all of this has left some pretty deep scars.
Over the years I have found comfort here on the boards and well, I just wanted to say 'thank you' for that.
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