Have You Ever Experienced Depression? (page 4)

Girlie

I have been down that road many of times. I still suffer with depression, but I manage it for the most part by giving myself positive affirmations, exercise, therapy, prayer and doing the things I want to do in life.

sinis

I had a very bad accident a few years ago - almost ended my life. It seems ever since my whole perception of life has changed. I just don't care anymore, and I do go through bouts of depression, negativity, etc. Its very odd why I feel this way, but I try to manage... don't like taking pills, and never will.

Like the previous poster I too go through panic attacks and feel like letting out a scream more than once and a while...

CoonDawg

I was in a pretty deep depression back in 2008. I did not end up being medicated for it, but that didn't make it any less real. I'd just moved to Florida for my wife's job. My dad and my JW mom were nearby as well as my batshit crazy older sister. The fact that they were the only people I knew didn't help. Put on top of that, I couldn't find work - and then I was diagnosed with type 2 diabetes - which meant that I could no longer drive trucks for a living because I was taking insulin injections. This depression lasted for at least the first 6 months that I was here. Everyone was worried about me - even more than I was about myself. My brother even flew me out to Portland and we traipsed around for a week. The only thing that finally got me out of the depths was starting college. I felt like I had a legitimate purpose again with things that were new and challenging.

Please don't misinterpret - I'm not saying to those with depression to just find a new hobby or keep busy. In my case, the change is what was necessary. My point is that I really empathize with those who are chronicly depressed. I know how hard it was for me and many have it much much worse. I've really been thinking about getting therapy. Since all of that, my parents divorced after 42 years because my dad came out as a cross dresser and, eventually, I discovered that he'd been cheating on mom. Their anniversary was in March - by the end of June, their divorce was final. Then in September, Mom was diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer - even though she'd never smoked or worked around cancerous airborn particulates. It had already metasticized to her bones and brain. Mom passed the first week of February, just two days before my 40th birthday. She lived with us for the last two months. It's still hard to believe she's gone. She was 62. During the time she was with me, it brought me into close regular contact with the JWs from her hall. They actually did their best to re-convert me...but that was hard and weird to go through. It brought up so many feelings that I hadn't had in years.

Anyhow- to those of you coping - just know you are far from being alone.

TimothyT

I had it for 7 months! IT WAS HORRIBLE!!! I hated being alive and i hated myself!

Ironicaly my depression was caused by surpression of my sexuality - thanks to the WTS!!!

I have since accepted myself and my depression has VANISHED!!!

Now i LOVE life and im so looking forward to the future, being free and being myself!

Tim x :)

Satanus

I had it most of my life, since i can remember. After leaving the wt, i began to get breaks from it. I started to confront it, tried to get to the bottom of it. I sensed something at the bottom of it. After a few yrs of efforts w focussed meditation, and various kinds of therapy, one day, while i was working, it came up. It was pain like nothing else. I call it primordial pain, likely from a very early experience. Anyhow, i gave it full riegn, and it was too much. I tried to think where i could find a gun, to end it. Failed. So, i drove into town and bought a bottle of strong booze. Drank that, carried on working as i cried. People reminded me about that for yrs.

I'm mostly out of it, now. Although, it still hits and stays for periods of time. When it does, it slams me back down, right to the bottom.

S

TotallyADD

I to was told my depression is caused by anxiety disorder. So I feel for you Murray Smith. Mr. sabastious I know that companion called depression. It's like a angry dog nipping at your heels. You just don't know when it's going to bite you. My depression subsided considerably when I started taking ritalin for my ADD. I don't know why but it has. I do know if I get to happy or have to good of a time the next few days I am fighting off depression. So I keep my emotions kind of at a level playing field, not to happy not to sad. I remember when I was a teenager I would have a week of feeling real good and happy I knew for the next 4 weeks I would be in a depression. I did not call it that because I did not know what it was. All I knew was I hated it. Of course being told by my parents not to have any friends or to be interested in anything because God was going to kill everybody didn't help matters at all. I blame the cult for most of my anxiety disorder and depression I have. Since I step down as a elder and have not gone to a meeting or field service for 3 months now about 90% of my anxiety has disappeared. I wonder why? Totally ADD

EmptyInside

I've suffered with depression in the past,and sometimes I still have my lapses. I've never taken any medication for it. I found taking long walks helps me sort everything out. Plus,the endorphins exercise provides really helps ease depression.

Plus,I always felt so repressed in the religion,and it's been frustrating. And it made me feel helpless and depressed. So,waking up to the truth about the "truth" has helped,too.

Broken Promises

I suffer from clinical depression. I've had it since I was a child. I didn't know that I had depression - I assumed everyone felt the way I did.

I started getting medication when I was about 25, when it finally dawned on me that I had something wrong with me. I was on Zoloft for 10 yrs but it stopped working for me. I went onto Prozac but I feel it's not working anymore.

My depression has got worse since I left the Witnesses. Maybe it's due to the suppression of emotions over the years, I don't know.

All I do know is that depression is a living hell. Every day I have to battle it. Now and then I feel like there's no point to life. I might as well end it all today. Why? Because I'm sick of being sick. This is existing, not living.

Satanus

I use a meditation technique to shut off my mind for a few seconds. It's like a reset back to normal. I use it against anxiety and negative thinking. It's been working to keep depression mostly out for the last couple of yrs.

S

VampireDCLXV

I've suffered the hellish depths of depression since my 'tween' [sic] years though not to the point of actually hurting myself but the thoughts of that were often there. I dumped the BOrg religion when I was 17 for the first time and a few years later the clouds lifted somewhat. Tens years after that, I got suckered into taking the dip and things seemed great at first. After a few years, I ended up in the same hell I was before, only this time the real-life consequences were a little more serious as I was living on my own but was barely able to function, barely able to care for myself and barely able to hold on to my job. After losing most of my "friends" and nearly losing my mind, I stopped pretty much all JW activity. I've been fighting this second round of depression since and I'm just starting to climb out as of late.

It's only looking back now with a clearer mind (and a determination to never go back to the BOrg) that I see a rather coincidental correlation between the years I spent "in" and the times I suffered from clinical depression. I'm not going back in for a third round...

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