"Who doesn't like a good de-conversion story? I'm sure we have all read or heard of many, but rarely have I found any as eloquent, comprehensive and deeply descriptive as this one by an ex-Christian on YouTube, by the name of TaylorX04.
The full video series is over an hour long and covers a great many of the standard arguments used both by atheists and apologists, describing in detail the exact mental gymnastics involved in changing one's mind on a matter of faith".
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OfK2QF9uUrM&feature=channel_video_title
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O_qD2n29RAM&feature=relmfu
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YegCNgqWupo&feature=relmfu
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IzAlDcjDHZU&feature=relmfu