It felt good to spend a day with a non JW gay! :) (page 2)

cult classic

Hi Tim, I'm glad you had a beautiful day just being yourself.

laverite

Yay! Ba yourself. Be happy. Enjoy Jack. ;-)

Pams girl

Hi Timmy, have replied to your PM x

Your day sounds wonderful! Your joy shines through in your post......listen to your heart and you wont go wrong!

Jack sounds like a very supportive and understanding man, you will need to rely on him when you leave the JWs, its so great that your attitude to life has quickly become so positive...this is what your life should be about...being yourself, trusting in who you are, and loving and being loved. You are unique. Celebrate that!

Im so happy for you...much love, Paula x

kjw53

How can losing eternal life for momentary pleasure bring true happiness? Is it really worth it?

Mad Sweeney

How can losing eternal life for momentary pleasure bring true happiness? Is it really worth it?

Giving up belief in an imaginary world ruled by imaginary friends in the sky in exchange for happiness in the only real life we have is always going to be worth it. Go get 'em Timothy!

Pams girl

Well said MS! Go get em Tim! BE YOURSELF.......your true self...............x You are not a sacrifical lamb here.....the disgusting liars in the GB have got far more to worry about when they have to confront their God than you ever will young man. LIVE! x

Paula x

TimothyT

Thanks guys - You are all amazing!

Hello kjw53. :) How are you? I think its appropriate that i answer your question! I think its a valid one and it is one that i have given some thought to.

For so many years i have been lying to myself and it has caused DEEP depression. Being a Jehovahs Witness has been wonderful, but the belief system has forced me into a mould that i just cant fit into anymore. It hurt far too much!

In reality this isnt about having momentary pleasure. Quite the opposite in fact. Its about eliminating lifelong pain. I have hurt for so long trying to be straight, so much so that i could no longer cope. I have been close to the stage of suicide, and believe me... IM NEVER GOING BACK THERE!!! I tried EVERYTHING to deal with the situation - NOTHING WORKED!!! I am happy the way i am now, and i dont believe for one second that Jehovah was happy when i was thoroughly depressed. I recall the scripture that says Jesus load is kindly and light (Matthew 11:30)! It never felt that way before! Of course, i may not be the ideal Christian in his eyes, but who is? At least im happy - the happiest i have been all my life actualy!

As regards, everlasting life... perhaps im a fool to throw that away... but if the price is going to be an existence of lifelong misery, then id rather not have it! I hope Jehovah understands that. I still class myself as VERY spiritual and i still want to do things right, but im not longer fighting this. When Jah reads my heart, i hope he focuses on all the good and honest things i have tried my best to do. If not, then thats his right!

Tim x

Anony Mous

Hi Tim,

If that's your real name I think I know you. I am not from your congregation but one close to it and have heard about you. If you want to you can PM me your congregation name or the area you're at. I won't confirm/announce it, use it against you nor am I homosexual or anything, just curious to see if I'm right.

TimothyT

Lol... Anony Mous! There are over 100,000 congregations in this world, and the most you could find out about me is where i live and what my name might be! VERY few outside of this message board know of my sexuality and thats the way i intend on keeping it! :)

It felt good to spend a day with a non JW gay! :)

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