I am so pleased that you have used your God given mind and left the lies of the wt. I too believe the so called jw memorial is satanic, or at the very least a rejection of Jesus.
If you are a believer (in God) have you considered for awhile at least simply reading the Bible and allowing the Holy Spirit to guide you? perhaps reading it front to back to get the entire picture? or some say to start at the New Testament instead and then starting again at the front and reading all the way through.
What our resident apologist is basically saying is that he/she will not answer any questions that challenge the wt/gb or challenge their own thinking in any way shape or form! ha, typical isn't it for a jw? either refuse to answer for some silly reason or change the subject! How dare you ask that! have you been talking to apostates (on a board filled with apostates no less!)? no need to read our old literature either, we have new light! Yep, God keeps changing His mind as the wind blows. It couldn't possibly be mere men making things up as they go!
True, some here are weary of debating scripture due to many years of trying to make our jw's see the light. Even asking them to read their own literature is too much of a stretch for them, even their own KIT they will not research because the minute they do they find how inaccurate their NWT really is. sad.