Welcome to the forum
After stumbling onto this site and reading some of the experiences it all came back and I realized that most of us needed professional help which we never received. I found that even with being away for so long there are still issues I have never dealt with completely. I had no one to talk to about my situation back then and I hope I can save someone a little bit of the anguish by giving them an alternative way to see the world.
Far too many people think that once they are out the story is ended. Sadly it can continue to lie dormant inside for decades. I was DFed but still believed for another 10 years until I found the internet and websites like this one.
Keep reading and learning and sharing your story. You most definitely are not alone