I studied with some of their faithful and discreet slaves[slaves is what they really are] and I've just got to say[I am not trying to be impolite or rude--'to each his own'] everything I was being taught, everything they tried to ram in my skull about their so called truth brought me one important conclusion--"only prisons have watchtowers, and I will not commit myself".
I think my main problem with not being able to accept the crap that they were dishing out, was that I was brought up catholic and as a teenager lived up to the normal 'rebellious catholic' stereotype.
The cross or stake thing really overwhelmed me, confused the hell out of me. And I couldn't understand why we could never study anything with my bible, which is King James, not NWT. And I couldn't comprehend why we jumped verses in the bible like playing leap frog. Most of the pople in the hall were nice[most of the time], but I now believe they were only nice because they wanted something from me, cuz when I started to revolt[go crazy, per se], they were no longer my 'friends', I was seen as an enemy, and a bad association.
And as far as I can tell, the only time when they make a move to [try] to convert me again, is if they see me in a weakened state, if I'm sad or depressed, they are not far behind preaching the truth and bible study, go to a meeting, read the Knowledge book.
Truthfully, I am more happy outside of the truth, at least I don't feel guilt as much anymore, and I am not constantly depressed about the end of the world scenario,[I mean the end of the world is a coming, so why even bother to live today type fear]. I feel no inclination to tread in those waters again.
Anyone who still has a chance of getting out, please open your eyes, research what you are wanting to do with the rest of your life. Look deep inside yourself and ask yourself--is this really my lot in life, and don't listen to anyone but yourself...
Hey, I'm proud to be an apostate.
Actually, I try to ignore topics related to pro-JW--it just gives me a headache.
Beans--I love your site--it's awesome--a real eye opener at the lying, conniving, decieving WT..