Illegitimacy. I too had the 1975 issue, having lived thru that myself.
Altho for years I thought there was something wrong with me, and that's why I couldn't get it. It was "the truth" therefore it I was the broken one. I finally sat down with a local sister to "get it" once and for all, get off the fence. What did it for me, was nothing could be clarified with the bible alone. The fact that she too could not answer my questions with the bible alone, started my wake up. By the time the CO came to town, I was pretty much awake, and he just was more ice water, waking me up even further. He too, couldn't use just the bible, he used the power play of machine gun firing scriptures that had nothing to do with our discussion, then pulling the "well then, you don't know everything" routine to gain control. Too bad for him, I saw right thru it. At least I am off the fence haha.
I really would like another crack at that CO haha, now that I am fully awake and more informed.