What would you do guys?
It's all risk vs reward at this point. You seem to have an emotional attachment to the memorial as most witnesses do. Going to something just because it makes you feel better for the night isn't a bad reason to do something. However, going to a memorial puts you into the "went to memorial" JW category whether you like it or not. So, it's really all just risk vs reward based on your specific circumstance.
-Sab