I can relate to them. It's difficult in the beginning when one begins to wake-up.
For years,it seemed I would have panic attacks and just start crying while getting ready for meetings. At the meetings I would spend a lot of time in the back,because I felt like I was going to cause a scene in the main hall. I never understood what the problem was until now. Now,I hardly go to meetings,and I no longer have panic and anxiety attacks,wonder why?
I went to the Memorial and a couple other meetings,and felt the old anxiety creeping on and got so depressed. Plus,I fear I'm back on their radar.
It kind of convinced me to give it up all together and stop faking it.
So,I understand what some are dealing with,but it can only go on for so long,before you totally snap. It's not good for anyone's emotional or even spiritual well-being. The Witnesses say that those that leave are selfish,I beg to differ. I've bent over backwards and risked my health to make my family and friends happy. Now,it's my turn.