I've talked with a number of JWs who have commented that they feel like failures -- that they're never good enough.
If that resonates with someone reading this post, please realize that you are by no means the only one who feels like that.
In fact, the whole WT system DEPENDS on keeping JWs feeling that way. The GB WANTS you to feel that way.
Think about it. You are always reading or hearing about someone who puts in an extraordinary number of hours in field service or someone who goes out more than you do despite having twice as many challenges and responsibilities. You feel ashamed. The fact is that no matter how many hours you go out in service, you could have done more. The organization uses that to guilt you and drive you to do more.
Likewise with meeting attendance.
You may also be plagued by some persistent sin in your life, maybe something no one else even knows about. You live in Romans 7:18-19: "I can will what is right, but I cannot do it. 19 For I do not do the good I want, but the evil I do not want is what I do."
You think your life is the biggest disappointment Jehovah ever experienced.
Armageddon is always just around the corner, and you're worried that you're not going to pass the test.
You look around the Kingdom Hall and you feel like a failure.
Guess what? Most of the people around you feel the same way! They may put on a smile but inwardly they feel the same as you do!
The Watchtower religion is a very legalistic system. The GB believes you must be driven by guilt and fear or you wouldn't do anything worth doing. So they keep you constantly feeling this way. The picture the organization paints of God is of an angry Jehovah who is never satisfied with you.
No, you're not perfect, but your constant feelings of failure are not what the Christian life is supposed to be.
In contrast to all this, in Matthew 11:28-30, Jesus said: "Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me; for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light."
In John 10:10, Jesus said, "I came that they may have life, and have it abundantly."
Something is wrong. Why aren't you experiencing what Jesus promised?
Could it be that the problem is with the WT system and not with you?
Could it be that the WT religion is a counterfeit Christianity, that it's legalism, not liberty, that it's anything BUT "life everlasting in freedom of the sons of God"?
Please consider that the key to the Christian life is Jesus Christ and his pardon and forgiveness, NOT some "theocratic organization" with its never-ending demands and guilt-trips.