This is how not to remain awake spiritually. It is a distraction. While you are busy reading a book that is out of date for 99.8% of us all, listening to rubbish about avoiding sex and apostates at all costs, and hounded to do more in field circus, your real spiritual needs are being neglected. This is all a distraction--were you part of a deal, pact, or class? Chances are good that none of us are part of that class--as such, trying to figure out how it fits you is a waste of your time.
And, in the meantime, you are neglecting real spirituality. You could be keeping up with what is going on in the world, from various sources, and preparing for hardships that are coming while you still can. Are you taking advantage of every time they knock down silver? They can only keep that up so long before they are going to create a shortage, and they will get squeezed. Hyperinflation will follow. And, while you were wasting time worrying about a few LIE-ble characters or listening to a talk about missing meetings, your silver buying time will run out.
Another thing you could do is actual studying the truth behind all right hand path religions. Do any of them actually teach you how the soul works, or do they simply teach that you should yield to anyone that would enslave you? To be spiritually strong, you need to know how the soul works and be able to get things to work properly. If you are not at least aware of this, you are in fact spiritually asleep--even if you are pious-sneering, always obey the Filthful and Disgraceful Slavebugger, read the LIE-ble and the littera-trash faithfully, and never miss a boasting session.