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RJB

Greetings,
This is my first time on this board. I have been a JW for over 40 years but currently am very discouraged and not very active. I served at Bethel for 4 years, 1963-67, spent most of my time at the Kindom Farms, S.Lansing, NY. Have special pioneered, served as Presiding Overseer for most of those years, was on the Societies speaking list while at Bethel, serviced as Instructor for the Kingdom Ministry School for elders for about 6 years. After having suffered from a long bout with depression, I resigned as an elder. After that, I was treated like I had the plague. Hardly anyone would talk with me, especially, the elders. After 25 years of marriage I got a divorce and was df'd. for two years. Got re-mairried and came back into the cong. Things were ok for a number of years, but have once again gone down hill. I have left my wife and am now living alone. I still go to the KH once in awhile. There were four months I didn't go to the meetings and no one called or came to see me. Right now I am in a wait and see what I am going to do. I still believe very much in the TRUTH, but am not so sure about the structure. I see so many of the brothers and sisters being discouraged because they are constantly being told that they just aren't doing good enough. I have been looking for others to talk with, but most of the brothers in my area cannot be trusted, that is, they would be looking for some way to get something on you so that they could df you. Actually, that wouldn't bother me anymore. I still speak well of Jehovah whenever I can and I know he is well aware of my situation. The hardest thing for me right now is being alone. I hate it and there is no chance that I will be going back to my wife. What is one to do when his only friends for the past 40 some years has been witnesses? I think if I found someone who wanted to share the rest of my life with them, I would move anywhere. Well, I guess I've said enough for now. If interested, I would love to hear from anyone who has some sympathy for someone in my situation. Thanks for listening. Love, RJB

amicus

welcome

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Edited by - amicus on 18 January 2001 4:4:41

Scorpion

RJB,

You will find friends here that you can express yourself too without fear of alienation. We do have a few disagreements, but everyone here is entitled to their opinion and are free to express it.
Sorry to hear about your wife and you splitting up. The lie that the organization teaches, that it brings families together once again proves false.
Good to have you here.

larc

RJB,

I am really glad you joined us. You have already had warm welcomes and believe me, in the morning you will have may more. This is a safe place to be. You may be alone physically, but here you ar not alone.

amicus

(me)

Edited by - amicus on 18 January 2001 15:9:57

trevor

Hello RJB,

I suggest you read 'Crisis of Conscience' by Raymond Franz. Available on the web at Amazon.co.uk.written by a man who was a third generation witness for the first 60 years of his life.

He served on on the governing Body for nine of them. We are not talking of a fringe member who drifted away but one of the leaders, who saw through the game at the Watchtower club.

All the Best

trevor

edited for spell check - oops!

Edited by - trevor on 18 January 2001 4:8:28

Pathofthorns

Welcome RJB

. I see so many of the brothers and sisters being discouraged because they are constantly being told that they just aren't doing good enough. I have been looking for others to talk with, but most of the brothers in my area cannot be trusted, that is, they would be looking for some way to get something on you so that they could df you. Actually, that wouldn't bother me anymore. I still speak well of Jehovah whenever I can and I know he is well aware of my situation.

I think you'll fit in fine here. Most of us are of the same viewpoint or at least share similar feelings.

Right now I am in a wait and see what I am going to do. I still believe very much in the TRUTH, but am not so sure about the structure.

What most people don't see in the beginning is that it is actually "the truth" that is responsible for the "structure" being what it is. You will see there is a big difference between "the truth" and what is actually truth.

Path

thinkers wife

Welcome and Greetings RJB,
You have come to the right place for support. Happy reading!! Love to hear more from you.
Thinkers Wife

Frenchy

Welcome to the board RJB. 'Talking' about does help and you will find out in time. It's sort of a venting process that we need for the intense emotions that are generated by our separation process from a mind controlling institution.
I served as an elder and P.O. for many years. I had speaking and work assignments on the circuit and district level. I invited often by other congregations to give public discourses and I had many, many friends. Once I stopped going out in service and my meeting attendance became less than exeplarary you would think that I have the plague. There is even a rumor going around the circuit now that I am df'd.
The C.O. visited our congregation this week and not a word. You would think that he would at least be interested in knowing why I am now inactive. Not a word. He and one of the elders called on another brother who stopped going to meetings even before I did but they never came to talk to me. Not a word. And as for the 'friends' that I served so long? Not a word.
So I know how you feel in this regard.

-Seen it all, done it all, can't remember most of it-

mommy

Welcome!
I hope you find this board as I have, a warm friendly place to vent, communicate, share, cry and love. Can't wait to hear from you in the future:)
mommy

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