better or worse??

peaceloveharmony

hi-i have a question for everyone. i was just wondering if your life has improved since you've left the org?

for me i left when i was 17, went to college, met a great guy who i live with now and have a ton of great friends. i'm very happy right now with my life. i'm in the process of starting my own online business and my future looks bright! the thing that gets me is that according to what i learned growing up a jw, anyone who leaves the org is setting themselves up for failure and has fallen into the hands of satan. but that is not the case in my situation. of course right after i left, i went a little crazy--drugs alcohol and sex but after a year i started to gain balance in my life. also right after i left i was a little emotionally unbalanced. i cried all the time because some of my family shunned me. but thankfully mom was always there and eventually dad came around too. i also lost my best friend. she shunned me for 6 years but i saw her at my brother's wedding two years ago and she did some detective work and figured out where i live and got in contact with me. now we hang out all the time. and i've gotten to know her wonderful 6 yr old son. so things i'd say have worked out pretty well for me. of course it still sucks that my sister and brother shun me but i'm starting to write them letters, i fugure i'll be the bigger person and contact them.

all in all though, things are BETTER for me now than before. i feel much better about myself--no more shame or guilt about every little thing. i am truly a happy person. and i feel more spiritual now than i ever did as a witness.

what about all of you?

curious,

love harmony

thinkers wife

Harmony,
I'm still in the beginning stages. But I can definitely say that over-all my life has drastically improved. I am with a wonderful man. We love each other dearly and support each other no matter what.
As for my family, not so good. But maybe some day! Never give up hope.
TW

peaceloveharmony

Thinker's Wife,

love is so important to find! i'm glad you have found true love.

as for family--i just keep hoping that as time moves on things will get better. and you are so right---Never give up hope!

thanks for replying:)

love h

Edited by - peaceloveharmony on 18 January 2001 12:17:34

mommy

Definately WORSE:
See I have demons coming in and out of my house ALL day!!!
Just kidding:) I would have to say i would probably not be on this earth today if I was still a JW. I know I wouldn't have my children. I have peace in my heart and follow my convictions, not those shoved down my throat. I may do things I regret but I forgive myself and move on, not tied down with guilt. No life hasn't always gone my way(this past year perfect example)but I can still look at myself in the mirror.I have had the privelege of meeting several GOOD hearted people, who love God and their fellow men.

And last but not least I too have found a wonderful man, who fills my world so full of his love I walk on clouds most of the time:) It is true you can get laugh lines at 26 yrs old:)
Yes I do miss my mom and other sisters that are still in org.But actually I wouldn't want my mom to leave, because this is all she knows and has paid dearly for her sacrifices. I would rather her be in the org. and have peace of mind, then come out and face WHAT? I think this is the true definition of love. Accepting a person "where they are at" I wouldn't be able to do this in org.
mommy

happytobefree

I AM SO VERY VERY VERY HAPPY. I'm happy to be able to participate with my community (truly loving people), I'm happy to go to my sons cub scout meetings, I'm happy to watch my very athletic son excell in sports; I'm happy to visit colleges with my son; I'm happy to go to a night club and dance the night away with my husband; I'm happy I can snuggle up and sleep in on Saturdays; I'm happy I can express my feelings with my friends (even things they don't agree on); I'm happy that I voted for the first time; I'm happy to know my kids are free to tell me they don't want to go to a religious functions; I'm happy to take my Tae Kwon Do class withOUT demons entering my mind; I'm happy to accept and buy my neighbors and friends gifts (xmas, b-day, etc.);
i'M HAPPY THAT I CAN SAY I REALLY LOVE MY JW FRIENDS AND PRAY FOR THEM DAILY. And I'm happy my family think I'm mentally ill (at least my father) and I can still talk to them about things that are important to me, but do not have to have aguments about religion anymore (they will not talk to me about spiritual matters, but will talk to a mentally ill person for hours about anything else).

Well I gues you get the point.

I'M HAPPY TO BE FREE (ME)

Edited by - happytobefree on 18 January 2001 13:36:34

JAVA

It's terrible being sucked back into Satan's world. I used to attend five meetings a week, underlined the "food in due season," and parroted the answers during meetings so others could enjoy the new light from the God's organization. Now that I'm following Satan, I'm forced to think on my own, find out who I really am, and do wicked things like helping serve food at soup kitchens.

I missed the five weekly meetings so much, and told Satan he better come up with something else or I would return to the KH. That really got his attention, so he sent me to a university where my time was wasted on classes. Before I knew it, I discovered a little about myself, and learned many new things. Satan is not to be trused, because I found work in the field of education, and now I'm helping other people on their journey. I really miss knocking on doors with the magazines, spending vacation time at assemblies, and the hours at the KH with enlightened people who never questioned the Watchtower, the elders, or anything from the Society. Tears are rolling down my cheeks now as I think of all I've lost by worshiping Satan.

Well, I've got to go now . . . you see I'm looking after my 86-year old mother who needs a ride to the doctor's office. Back in the good old days as a Witness, I didn't have time for her because she is not a JW. That Devil sure is sly.

JAVA, counting time at the Coffee Shop

Edited by - JAVA on 18 January 2001 23:45:36

RR

I've been blessed since day one, why? because I left an organization, I did not leave Jehovah and Jesus!

"People in glass houses, shouldn't throw stones"

larc

JAVA,

Man oh man oh man! I thought I was sarcastic. What you wrote was a beautiful piece of work.

JAVA

larc,

As a former JW, I just received the latest copy of Satan Today, perhaps you'll get yours in the mail tomorrow. I see we're allowed to count time caring for the sick and elderly. Taking Mom to the doctor means I got in 2 hours today. Thanks for your kind words, Brother larc.

JAVA, counting time at the Coffee Shop

Edited by - JAVA on 18 January 2001 23:59:28

amicus

I have inactive for a long time, but I just recently broke free of the Watchtower bondage. I'm ecstatic knowing that I'm not going to die with the wicked tomorrow at Armageddon. It can only get better from here. Oh yea, and the next birthday party I go to? I'm gonna be the loudest singer there.

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