My panic attacks were only at the meetings and field circus for years. It eventually started to happen at work as well.
My depression, anxiety and feelings of panic, even though medicated on the max dose of prozac disappeared almost instantly when I came to this website and found out TTATT.
If I believed in miracles I could attribute it to God, but it is so much simpler than that... I finally gave in to that subconscious prodding that 'something aint right, too many doubts'!
I literally woke up the next day realising I had been living a lie and felt different, over the next few weeks and months I waited to fall back into that darkness but it didnt happen and still hasnt.
Trying to explain this to my dub parents is near impossible and makes me look apostate in their eyes (which I am, lol) ... and thats just blaming the org for my mental illness, so they think Im just having a break (much to their disgust).
I firmly believe now that a lot of the mental illness in the org is that subconscious doubting trying to be heard and constantly pushed back. Also the pressure to conform, not think too much, guilt, fear and not ever being able to measure up is to blame.
Leaving the org may not be an instant fix for many but I think if they find out TTATT they will get well onto the road to healing.