I was just wondering if anyone else has been in a similar situation and can advise me?
Like many here, I was bought up as a JW, with full-time service (Bethel, pioneer) the only career option held out in front of me. I wanted to take a government loan and go to University, but was forced not to, labelled 'materialistic'.
I became a pioneer / window cleaner - round here, almost all pioneer brothers window clean, unless they are retired or have a rich daddy. It's quite tough, as customers treat you like some idiot who couldn't get an education, and most brothers claim state welfare to survive. Here in the UK, if you have kids, the state will basically pay your rent and provide you welfare for the kids, and this is how people get by on low income jobs. I am single without kids as per GB direction - more time for Jehovah - so no wife to share bills with and the state doesn't help - they are cutting back the welfare state: they provide very little support to under 35s.
Now I'm not pioneering, I can't stay with my family, and I have no idea how to get by. How do you guys make ends meet without a degree?
I have a lot of problems with stress from congregation problems, lack energy I had before, doctor says I have CFS/ME; the elders said it's the demons, lack of prayer - I can't get enough windows cleaned to make ends meet - sometimes I eat one meal a day and my clothes are falling apart. I throw out leaflets and knock doors but can't get enough cleaning jobs. I don't have the money to setup any other kind of business. My friends/family, people I'd look to for advice or support, are avoiding me because I find meetings stressful. This is so lonely!
I apply for jobs, but my CV/resume just says "college dropout who took up window cleaning" so people assume I was too dumb to finish school and won't take me seriously. I find this very depressing as I no longer have this thought of living forever or great purpose the ministry gave, but my life is going by fast and I'm achieving nothing. I am ignorant of how life works outside JW world and have no connections. I can see myself in this same mess in 20, 30 years time, like many old pioneers I know struggling to pay their bills.
Any one been here? What did you do?