Wow! What a warm welcome, Thank you.
I enjoy this site for it's acceptance of all humans, the one thing I have always been uncomfortable with "in the Truth" ( I hear you happytobefree :) ) was, and is the conditional love put on us. I have gone through years of therapy, trying to find out what was wrong with "me", why I always felt like an outsider, why I couldn't love enough, hate enough, at command. I wasted a lot of money, they all told me I was normal, I had a right to my feelings, going back to meetings, I was told I didn't have a right to my feelings, it was
their feelings, ( the organizations ) or I was wrong. I couldn't shun someone who was df'd if I liked them, and didn't know what they did. My husband and father of my 3 children constantly cheated on me, but my ex father-in-law who was very well known, kept it all under "cover" and said it was my fault, never being submissive enough, not enough sex, sex was important to keep a man...( now don't get me wrong, I love sex but that's not what were talking about here ) I kept getting pregnant, and after 3 kids in 10 years, it is normal for a man to wander. My ex- mother in law was always very loving in taking me shopping to buy sexy lingerie, even at 8 months pregnant. It was always my fault. Of course it was, I had gotten fat, gained alot of weight, went from 105 lbs, to 130 after 3 kids. I am 5'5. In the '70's anorexia or bulimia weren't popular yet, but my daughter who became a teenager in the "80's discovered it, and her father noticed, and appreciated it.....
...to be continued...I have to go see my therapist...Sara Lee...
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