Simon closed the thread which contained this post for you, from me. I'm not, at this point expecting any reply. I did, however, want to make sure YOU saw it:
Actually Simon, I have something to say to Farkel on a comment in this thread. It took some nerve to do, so please, allow me.
It isn't easy for me to confront men such as you "Farkel", yet I must eat this FEAR up and then spit out, for good in order to get the toxins out.
You say here:
"What Kismet said hurt my feelings, because he and I have been friendly and have shared private information for a goodly number of years."
That sucked didn't it? It made you FEEL something inside you that was what? Emotional? You felt an emotion? You?
And it hurt why? You FELT what? Betrayed? Why? Because you had become FRIENDLY over a goodley number of years and PRIVATE SHARED INFO was what? Revealed in public? How could anyone ("friendly for years") do such a thing, you say?
Well Farkel, I'd like to ask you the very same thing when it came to DOING the very same thing to me, a few months back.
We had become "friendly for a goodley number of months". And yes, I admit that I had become emotionally involved with you and some of your plight at the time. I even went so far as to have cops looking for you the night some here thought you were on a "suicidetrip".
The next day I was on the phone with some of your friends in san diego county that knew who knew you. Yea, that was pretty emotional and scary.
I wasn't aware of how you would react though to a person who'd you had become friendly with over the months/years. It shocked me actually. I felt embarrassed that I'd even went to the lengths I did that night.
You hadme wondering though, after you're "you are so emotional" comment if we had truly even been friends for those months. Thus the "fuck off" I shot you with.
Then I see the next thing you DO is post private things about our private conversation about my life. That scared me bad and me walls went straight up. I thought, holy krap, how much info do people here really privately reveal about one another? And what a fool I was.
It hurt Farkel, just like it hurt you. If we were truly actually friendly, like i had thought, you would not have reacted to how i was reacting emotionally to what was going on with you that night in the chatroom. But the way YOU reacted betrayed and stunned me. And it will always hurt. It will keep confirming that revealing and sharing is the revealers and sharers risk on public forums and even privately.
I mean honestly, how much time is spent gossiping about others here? How much do you know about me or someone else because I was the one who told you or because someone else revealed it to you?
I wrote this not for cheerleaders to rah, rah or nah nah or to gain apologies by you. I wrote it because I needed to swallow this fear of speaking up to men like you that paralyze me with emotion. And grip with me with FEAR. It feels just like when I was young and I'd be told if I didn't this or that I'd have to go in front of the elders. FEAR and EMOTION would grip me and paralyze me.
I'm tired of allowing mySELF to be gripped with fear (blackmailing personal info) and emotion (rage) by men such as you Farkel.
There, I've chewed up that fear.
sKally, spit:
If man was supposedly created in gods image, then.....holy krap...we're all doomed.-sKallyWagger