Kate. I'd like to say you are doing the right thing by posting here and seeking information.
I was an elder for some years and that is when my eyes were truly opened to the horror behind the facade of 'truth'.
Now, I'm not telling you to become a JW or not....it's YOUR choice.
After I saw how wicked things were behind the scenes I left the organization. As a result my marriage broke up and my JW wife left me. Obvoiously you only have my word for it.....but I tried to keep the family together for over 2 years. Than one day she left. Just like that!
Look behind the scenes Kate, get fully informed information. If you were going to buy a car you'd want full critique from both sides. You wouldn't just trust the manufacturer because they'd only give you their spin. This is the same with the watchtower.
If you question the elders about policies/doctrines you don't agree with, you'll soon be labelled a troublemaker at the risk of losing you friends and family.
BEWARE!!!!!