My father the COBOE and much loved member of the cult has ignored me and my children 17yrs and 8yrs old for much of my life and all of my kids lives.
I hate that religion for taking my father away and I hate him for being sucked in and putting all his love, time and kindness into the org and the stupid dubs and leaving himself too tired and uninterested in us. My kids dont have grandparents, my mum is ok, she rings me once a month but kinda ignores my kids, just gives em $50 each a yr as a substitute for love and attention.
We had to move 18 hr drive away for work 12 yrs ago but i still make the time each yr to travel down and stay with them, mum used to come up here for holidays till i told her i was not going to meetings anymore due to depression. Ive just faded not DF or DA.
I cant believe my kids are being ripped off grandparent wise. (Hubbys parents are into paedophilia so enough said there.) Im so friggin angry today, sometimes it just catches up with me esp when I see grandparents who adore their grandkids and spend every moment they can with them.
Its hard to believe how nice, loving and kind my dad is to the dubs, it makes me cry because i want that! As his daughter im entitled to that, them fools already have their own families, they dont need mine!!
Ive never been spiritual enough for my dad, simple as that - a big disappointment 'spiritually' forced into baptism at 15, kicked out 6 months later for not wanting to go to meetings, spent 3 yrs of my life living with prostitutes and drug dealers, being drugged and raped and ending up feeling very low and suicidal.
DF at 20 then my life got on track when I met my wonderful Hubby of 19 yrs, after my reinstatement at 22 my dad basically ignored me, hardly spoken to me since.
Thankyou all for listening to my angry painful rant, Im typing so fast there is no time for punctuation or spell check, I know if I dont write this while angry then I never will.