Here is where I'm coming from. You have shared a number of visions and personal revelations.
Yes (and peace to you!).
I am 95% sure that you believe they come from your lord. I leave a little opening for the possiblity that you don't actually believe that, simply because this is the internet, and that must be a consideration. It's not personal, but it is a wise way to approach the internet.
You can be 100% sure of it. I more than believe it - I know it.
Now I am 99.9% sure that these revelations did not come from a god.
Okay. However, I am not disputing with YOU what YOU are "sure" of, dear one. Because (1) you are entitled to believe... or not believe...what you wish to; and (2) what you are sure of about the matter really isn't an issue with or of concern to me. I don't say that to be rude, truly. I say it to be honest.
Instead, a full list of possiblities go through my mind first. I will share them with you, WITH the understanding that I am not saying any of these pertain to you, but are simply things I consider.
No worries. I am all "ears"...
A hallucination. The cause of this hallucination can be one of many, or several of many. The list includes but is not limited to:
Sleep paralysis (I have that, and I know EXACTLY how real it feels. Not only looks, but sounds, feels, smell etc)
An organic mental disturbance. Bi-polar. Schitzophrenia etc.
A physical disturbance--physical illness, nutritional imbalance.
Disassociative vision---this is not physical, but where a person can disassociate and wish something so badly, they actually see it come true.
A con---again, not accusing you of this, but it is on the list.
Lucid dreaming.
Repressed memories that are getting jostled.
Again, none of this necessarily pertains to you, but this is how my brain works.
I understand. None pertain to me, so you can rest easy as to these. Truly.
Yet it is real to you. Okay.
It is, yes.
What disturbs me is when people accept these visions with no way to really check them out. I think it makes them vulnerable to many things.
I understand. Which is why I tell them... repeatedly... to NOT take my word for it... but to ask for themselves. Some do... and then they're okay about it all. Some don't... and so continue to have issues.
Yet I see it happening here all the time. They just take you at your word, and I don't think that is the right way to handle this. I don't think that you think so either.
I don't... which, again, is I why I tell them (and you) to NOT take MY word for it.
Then there is the substance of the visions. Dragons? To what end. I understand we are not talking about Camelot, so let's set that aside.
Are you SURE you understand that? I am not being "smart" or snarky - I just know that that's the only frame of reference most have and so it's difficult for some to move past "Camelot."
You are expressing something and are limited by language, so you do your best.
I admit that.
But to what end?
One, primarily: so that I no longer lie to others as to the MOST Holy One of Israel, JAH of Armies... and His Son and Christ, the Holy One of Israel, JAHESHUA, the Chosen One of JAH (MischaJah)... which I did for many, many years. Because I didn't know the TRUTH about them. Now, I do. And so, I simply share that. So, I guess you could say the end... is truth. Even if that truth is hard for others to hear. I don't ask that anyone hear it, though: they can hear if they wish... or refrain. The choice is entirely theirs. Well, not entirely - it is also the choice of the One who grants them ears TO hear... which he does... for those why truly wish them. But that's another topic altogether...
How does such a thing enlighten?
Why do you think the purpose is to enlighten? Why do you not consider that it simply an effort on my part to dilute some of MY bloodguilt... for all of the lies I formerly told?
Why so long before it was brought to our attention?
I do not know, at least not in full. I only know partially why. What I DO know, though, partially... I am not permitted to share. Since it's not mine, I have to respect that.
Why after hundreds of thousands of years of humans seeking, should this information be important to us now and not then?
Dear NC... I am going to say this to you in ALL truth... and I truly hope you can receive it and not take offense: I think you misunderstand - it is not for "us". It is for the Household of God, Israel, and those who go with that House. That does not include everyone. I am sorry if that does not sit well with you, but I didn't make that truth. It is for those who are the New Covenant, those who are being called to have the Law written on their hearts, those with whom the MOST Holy One of Israel is concluding a NEW Covenant. Now, if you count yourself in among those of that House, then, yes... it is for you. If you do not... and everything you've ever posted on the matter tells me you do not... then you are misunderstanding as to "us." Again, I am not trying to be smart, smug, immodest, harmful, hurtful, arrogant, pious, judgmental... or any other word that I know will come (from others but not necessarily you). I am simply stating the truth.
I think you will say that you do not know, but I have no way to check it out. I think you will say that we don't KNOW that this hasn't been revealed before, but again, we can say that just about anything that we don't know.
I would not say the first, except that I only know partially and cannot reveal what I know... at least, not to those outside that House (and not even to some in it, but I have been permitted to reveal it to a few). I would say the second... but I wouldn't say that "we" don't know, although perhaps "you" don't.
That's how my brain processes this information, and it disturbs me to see others too willing to set all this aside and simply accept them.
Yes, but you ASSUME that's what others do... because all you see is what is posted on this board. Can you tell me, truly, that your posts are the sum total of you... what you believe... what you do... what you accept... your discussions with others... elsewhere, even outside the board? I don't think you can. I also don't think you're as concerned about such others as you think - indeed, you consider them infants, incapable of thinking, even critically, and just blind, dumb "followers." You (and others) think that... because of your OWN experience... because of what YOU saw and/or experienced with relation to one or more cults... and perhas at one time that is what YOU were... and so you ASSUME those who leave such cults... but don't leave God... are just repeating the pattern. And I get that - I am afraid for some who leave and do that, as well.
I cannot convince you... or anyone... that this is different. Like those who relate to what I share, you (and they) must decide for yourself. But please don't blame me or accuse me of MAKING you... or anyone ELSE... DO... LISTEN to... READ... or BELIEVE... ANYTHING. There is a reason that such ones are vehement that they are not following me: because they AREN'T. And those that TRY to (and some sort of "needy" folks do try)... are told to cut it out. And I distance myself from them... because I am NOT their leader... or anyone's leader.
If they want to follow someone, the ONLY One I can tell them to follow... is Christ. If they are capable of that, wonderful. If not, then they have a problem... because they can't follow ME. Because I myself am a follower... not a leader.
So I challenge them.
Dear one, I don't mind a challenge. But calling me names, hurling insults, falsely accusing me of impropriety, wrong motives, wrong actions, cultism, usurping another's (Christ's) leadership and authority, and, in some instances, even what amounts to ME as blasphemy... yeah, that I mind. Because it's untrue. Now, will I fight you with, say, my fists, a gun, sword, slander, or things like that? No, I would never. Will I respond? Yes, I just might. But with TRUTH, not with hateful propoganda.
I don't fear "you." "You" fear me. Because "you" fear... what "you" DO NOT KNOW. Which is not MY fault - heck, I'm trying to TELL you. "You" don't know... because those who claim to know, who raised themselves up over "you"... and claimed to teach "truth"... to have the "truth", and in some instances to BE the "truth"... have NO clue what the truth IS. Because they don't know WHO the Truth is.
I'm not diagnosing you or accusing you of anything,
I know. I understand what you're trying to do: reason with me from a... non-belief... perspective. I get that and I take absolutely no offense at it. Were the shoes on the opposite foot, I might try to do the same thing as to you. Might not. I really don't know.
but it is responsible to consider all possiblities,
It is.
and I would like to see others doing the same.
Yes, but (1) how do you know they haven't, and (2) how is it MY fault if they have NOT? I am not stopping anyone from researching or looking into anything they wish to, need to. I am not the WTBTS GB. I LOVE learning... and wish ALL to learn. I have no rule, spoken or unspoken, where ones not only cannot read/research/look into anything... including what I share... nor do I have one that they MUST read what I post. Goodness, I even tell some to STOP reading, DON'T open my threads, etc.
It's a free country, dear one... and for the Body, free-will is tantamount (not sure that's the right word, but it's late - I mean something near ultimate, if that makes sense). For me to try and "bind" that will... to make others do MY will... is not only ridiculous, but insane. Really, it's "YOU" folks (not you, NC, per se, but "you"... the opposers/usual suspects) who [try to] give me all that "power". "YOU" raise me up. "YOU" point more attention to me than I ever could. I post a discreet thread... and YOU all come to it, make all sorts of "noise"... post other threads talking about it... bring moderator and others attention to it. Point fingers... cry... yell... even scream... "YOU" do that. "You" have created a culture where folks here KNOW... there's gonna be a "Usual Suspects vs. AGuest" situation. On virtually every thread. No matter the topic. Sooner or later, one of "you" are going to bring my name up - even when I'm not here!
Goodness, I left the board. Could I BE gone? Nope. Folks not only had to continue discussing me... but some even went and dug up old threads? Do you think, then, that I was responsible for putting the topics into folks minds afresh? Nope, wasn't me. But the result was GREAT for me - because not only did folks who previously saw them and viewed them positively see them again... but NEW folks saw them... and now NEW ones are saying, "I want to know MORE!"
"YOU" create that "power" that "you" keep accusing me of trying to take.
But I don't WANT it. I don't NEED it. Because I am just a servant. I know this, unmistakably.
If you don't believe me... ASK them... any of them... those "you" accuse of following me. Ask them. And yet, they have tried to TELL you folks. But... you don't listen. You don't listen... because you don't respect them... OR their right to CHOOSE.
There is a great deal of room for reasonable doubt here.
And "you" are the ones who repeatedly attempt to stifle anyone's chance to even consider such. "You" tell them that they CAN'T choose anything other than what "YOU" say they SHOULD believe... or not believe. What makes "you," then, any different from the WTBTS?
They are not running TO me, dear NC, as much as they are running away from the WTBTS... and ANYTHING that even closely resembles it. The way some of "you" treat them, however... makes "you" resemble the WTBTS. Even more than any other religion, cult, teaching, etc.
It's one reason why I would never run to "you"... or your "side". Because, as some here often say: "If it LOOKS like a duck..."
I hope this helps and, again, peace to you.
A slave of Christ,
SA
