hello,
thank you for this forum. thank you for your stories which helped wake me up from my delusion. thank you for letting me join you.
About me:
born in
-parents true believers
-baptized at 10
-parents died in teenage years
-lived with dysfunctional JW family
-married at 18 in kingdom hall
-our marriage is happy but...
-husband wont let me work or go to college
-became a pious-sneer
-currently in mid-twenties
-no children
my level of delusion:
-memorized the new songbook
-detailed notes in my bible on our interpretation of prophecy and the scriptures
-made notebooks of my favorite Watchtower points
what changed:
-Read tons of books about personality disorders to make sense of my experience with dysfunctional JW family and friends
-after years of studying this subject it finally got into my thick head that the WTS is a sociopathic entity. I haven't been able to read or listen to their material lately without seeing their pathology.
-decided to find out the truth about my beliefs, and here I am.
I've never felt such relief. I used to pray God would kill me before Armageddon so I wouldn't have to see all the dead babies.
I'm currently reformulating my code of ethics, and plotting my escape ;)
Please wish me luck.