andys....you wrote my exact thoughts....except I read COC in 2000.
I hated everything about being a JW when I started Kindergarten and had to color a clown instead of a Santa Claus. I was the rebellious JW kid...I hated everything. I was very intelligent and social and everything that my hard work accomplished, being asked to be editor of the school newspaper, being voted as Class President without running, nominated for HomeComing Queen. Track coaches begging my parents to let me run on the track team for 3 years straight...Anythng that normal parents would be so very happy for their child...mind had to remind me that these were not something that would honor Jehovah. ....I have always hated this f**king religion.
...but what do I do when I when I married a non JW and moved to a new city. I get lonely and home sick....so I meet a nice lady at the bus stop who is a JW and I saw it as a sign from Jehovah that I needed to go back to the KH. I get baptized, ruin a potentially great marriage and all the other trappings of choosing the f**king JW religion.
So reading COC verified everthing I knew my whole life that my parents had chosen a f**king cult. That I HATE!!!! I really want to release my utter HATE for the this f**king relighion.