Yes, I feel foolish that I fell for that rubbish. However as a born-in, there are so many things that you don't question and when you do have that lightbulb moment and you feel this is all wrong, you are taught to keep these to yourself otherwise it demonstrates a lack of faith or satanic influence. What it is is common sense and you are taught not to trust it. Yes, I did feel embarrassed about my connections to jws, always downplaying it.