I just want everyone to know I am NOT an apostate….i have not turned my back on Jehovah.
Of course you haven't!!! Many of us here have not turned our backs on God either! In fact we have chosen to be loyal to God over everything, even an organization that claims to be His ONLY representatives.
Remember that there are many that did this in the Bible. Jesus would've been considered an apostate according to WT standards. He would've been disfellowshipped for His speaking out against the Jewish leaders. He completely went against the teachings from men and what was considered to be God's organization back in His day. He was loyal to TRUTH over any organization.
The OT prophets too were loyal to God OVER any type of organization. Jeremiah spoke against what really WAS God's organization back in his day because of the lies that they were teaching. He was abused and humiliated for it.
Remember that we need to be loyal to truth over all things. Be determined to follow truth whereever it leads you. Also remember that it is lies, not truth, that hide from close examination. Truth has nothing to fear from questions, examination, and research.
You'll find a great group of people here. Some are elders and MS's. Some have faded. Some are fully out. There is a perspective for nearly everyone here. You were conditioned to be afraid to talk to people that have questioned the organization. But again, truth has nothing to fear. If someone is telling lies about the organization, it will come out and be easily discoverable. You will find that people that are questioning the organization are not so scary and evil as you were always told.
Anyway, WELCOME, MSconcerned!!!