I no longer worship Jehovah. The only suggestion I can make is that everyone has a different faith journey and the important thing is to be true to what you feel in your gut. I left b/c of my gut feeling. A crucial part of my journey was to read the Bible in consecutive verses without any commentaries. I still do so. Only after I have asked what it means, do I read commentaries.
I always believed that the Witness knew their Bible. Even when I could not stomach another meeting, I believed they have superior Bible knowledge. Reading the text of the Bible carefully, I found how wrong they were on many matter. Part of what I found was outright lies about the scripture. Most of what I found is that the Bible is not clear on a range of topics. Rather than live with uncertainties, the WT invents stuff. I suppose most churches do so.
My personal experience was that there was no love with the Witnesses. Others here remark about how they felt loved and miss the people. I would say to honor your own abilities.
If you meet the Buddha on the road, kill him. Many people with doubts have had their faith renewed through questioning and research. I submit there is nothing the GB knows that you cannot also know. I hate when people order me what to believe so I will not order you.