If you have to go and by the way you sound like a great lady to do that for your husband.... down load a few books on a tablet and read. Pick a favorite author and only read the book at the KH. Pretty soon you'll be looking forward to going back and continuing with your book. That way it will be time well spent!
Going to the meeting tonight ARGH!!!! So wanna end this pain NOW!
by Julia Orwell 40 Replies latest jw friends
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gone for good
Julia-
what a nice turn of phrase ยจ*....in the watchtower night.* may I appropriate it for a poem some day?
Who wouldnt have such night terrors associating with people who dont care care about the poor or sick?
Punk you are sooo right about 'Smile and nod.' I spend months of my life living and travelling in countries whose languages I do not speak.
When friends ask me if I can speak the lingo, I say '' No, but I can smile and nod in any known language.''....and everything works out just fine.
Julia no longer thinks nor speaks 'watchtower' it is now foriegn to her - what to do but smile and nod.
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whathappened
What a horrible situation this is for you, Julia. Wish there was an easy answer for you, my dear.
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problemaddict
Julia I am right there with you! Do our hearts not burn because of the things we have learned? Ha!
I second Ann's advise. For example, it looks liek I am stuck going to the Convention this year. Oh happy day!
What will keep me sane? I will be dilligently taking notes for the sake of the group here if I'm stuck. Others have helped me, its only right I help others. Make it alearning endeavor, and bury your nost in the bible and take notes on non-sense, and start a thread here.
Ressit the urge to be a martyr. Your hubby could indeed wake up.
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Brother of the Hawk
Julia dear.
Gojira 101's dad here. She is right, if you get dfed the rest of the cong. will also ignore hubby. I have seen this many times over the years. They will not invite him over for a meal, they may not even call, for fear you may pick up the phone, ect. ect.
Will your hubby love you no matter what?. If so, getting dfed, may show him what's realy going on. Going to meetings with him and remaining at his side at all times just might make him see the "love" jw's dont have. They will not engage in much conversation, because you are at his side.
Just a thought.
Affectionately, Brother of the Hawk
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fifth.column
Sorry Julia.
We are so many in the same situation around the world...
We truly love our family. Our family ready to shun us in one second, after a quick decision of 3 stupid men...
For my part I do my best to avoid suffering to my wife.
But I know how it is hard. You're not alone, keep this in mind during meetings, it helps.
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TheSophist
I couldn't keep going. I couldn't stand the thought of people thinking I was in anyway agreeable to the filth spewed from the podium. Bold face lies, I could not sit there anymore. So I stopped going with my wife. She actually prefers it that way as it always seemed to ruin our day if she guilted me into going. My suggestion to you is if you feel at all like I did then give yourself the space you need and don't go. If you can go without it arousing unhealthy emotions then go and bide your time as has been suggested. Best of luck to you.
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CADSkin
Pick up a foreign language! Get a NWT or download other pubs. in a language you'd like to learn and follow along. I learned Spanish when I was a kid and everyone around me just thought I was very diligent in looking up the scriptures.
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RobertT18
I know how you feel. I will hate Wednesday and Saturdays until I'm free.
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return of parakeet
Julia: " but I want my husband to wake up to them as I have, not become a martyr to his 'apostate' wife and be an object of pity in the congregation. This is freakin' doin' my head in!!! "
On one hand -- what the congregation thinks about your husband.
On the other hand -- your sanity.
Doesn't seem hard to me to see which is more important.